Love and Growth.

I wrote this awhile ago, a good few months after a REALLY bad break up. I'm keeping it because it's amazing and empowering.

So the spring has arrived and early summer is setting in here in NE. I am gearing up for what I planned to be a great summer. I planned this summer back in January when I needed something to keep me occupied and working for. Things will be tight, but money is not what I am looking for right now.

I am looking for some type of fulfillment. I want satisfaction. I have come far. I have discovered new things about myself.

Come to find out I was just believing what others were telling me.

I have discovered that I am outgoing. I am a people person. I am NOT an introvert. I am perfectly in line with being outgoing and fun, but thinking with my head and being reserved when it suits me to be.

I am not even hard to get to know. I am extremly personable, and I am certianly more in touch with others feelings and thoughts than I give myself credit for.

I've learned to always trust my instincts. When something is bad I don't have to stick around. I don't have to push someone to be their best. I don't have to give things up. Anyone who is truly caring would find a happy medium, and that is when I will be willing to make sacrifices.

No more one sidedness. I have put too much on the line these past few years!

I am strong and independent. I sometimes let people have too much power over me. I am determined to fix that.

I am also extremely dedicated. Maybe it's okay to give someone a run for their money. I think I will relax in the dedication area.

I found out that I have absolutely amazing friends. I don't think that God could have given me a better support system.

I have also created new expectations for new relationships.

Loving someone is seeing their potential and inspiring them to reach it. It is also enduring someone at their worst. Loving someone is also working hard to reach your own potential.

Love is certainly not demanding. And it is most certainly patient.

If someone is choosing not to be their best, and you haven't promised to stick around for life...I say don't. It's not worth suffering through others decisions that aren't healthy for you and possibly not healthy for themselves.

I've decided if I cannot have an undemanding and patient love, I don't want it.

If I have to give up everything just to have love than I will choose not to. In the end Love is wanting the other to be happy, as well as wanting yourself to be happy too. And you should be number one, until you decide to be 1/2.

1/2! Not 2nd.

I am also still sticking with my old definition of Love is a promise. I will be excited to find a person who can keep it!

I love this growing thing. It's great!